2 am

this is new.

well not so new.

but a new feeling.

new way of seeing eachother.

I hope it progresses into some m o r e . . .

it was comfortable

and just right

my soft curves and your hard muscles

fit so well

& my skin

& my sheets

smelling like you in the morning

inaudible melodies

and last night was a night to remember.

love shared with friends and family.

the memories we produced.

the happiness we spread.

the love that grew stronger.

... and will keep growing forever.

oh I can't wait to get married.

and have a wedding of my own.

my hands are shaking

fuck I am nervous for tomorrow.

I don't know if I am prepared or not.

what if I completely screw up?

what if I panic and don't know what to do?

the photos... they might turn out wrong!

the weather might be grey and raining.

I can't mess up once-in-a-lifetime photos!

okay. chill.

you're only photographing a wedding.

I can produce something that is beautiful/stunning/jaw dropping/breath taking... right?

RIGHT?!

oh fuckshitballs.

BAHAHAHA!

sleepyhead

you know what?

I don't feel like sleeping tonight.

I want to stay up all night and make art.

mom, "what happened? why is your room so messy?!"

me, "I'm being creative and making art!"

now THAT is a legit reason. sir.

sometime around midnight

can we pretend

that

airplanes in the night sky

are like shooting stars

I could really use a wish right now.

!@#$%^&*

when in doubt...

put the ipod on shuffle.

man up and keep walking.

shit faced and stoned

puked on my shoes

passed out on the toilet

went to work hungover as balls

total hours of sleep in the last 3 days: 5

May Long weekend... successful.

all is love

"Was someone close to you rude without any provocation? Were you the target of unpleasant criticism? You take these slights to heart. Beginning today, and throughout the days to come, you can expect to withdraw somewhat in order to lick your wounds. You need more harmony and gentleness in your love life, and you're likely to obtain that soon. Be patient"

I really hope this horoscope is true, especially the "likely to obtain that soon" part.

my love life... HA I'd kinda need one first.

be patient oh sweet one.

burnt out stars shine so bright

More than ever before, you'll feel as though it's time to take matters into your own hands and build your future. You're fed up with living on hope and putting your happiness off until tomorrow. Your determination will be so strong that you may even surprise yourself. You'll refine your approach and make it more concrete in the coming days. Today is the first day of a new life for you.

unpacked boxes

I am so lost in this messy room.

I can't find myself.

maybe if I clean my room I'll find her soul again.

under all these clothes on the wooden floor.

still in good condition.

go to sleep Kelsey.

unusual is the usual

and todays horoscope is :

"Today's aspects are suggesting that you take a good hard look at the state of your ego. Are you too proud or too humble? Buddhists say that the path to spiritual fulfillment lies in knowing how to build a healthy ego while at the same time developing a part of oneself completely foreign to the ego. Are you working hard at this?"

crazy how right these can be hey.

things to do today...

LAUNDRY

CLEAN SHIT

GYM

take a shot of wheatgrass

and apparently work on my ago.

OH AND GET SOME SLEEP! jeez.

I Don't Mind

Sometimes.

life's biggest adventures

begin with a simple action.