sad parade

i'm not mentally prepared.

then when will you be mentally prepared?

you're the only one who can get myself out of this.

don't be a baby anymore.

but it's so much easier that way.

ofcourse it's easier that way!

you give up too easily.

and now you just sit here crying, typing on this damn blog.

looking for answers that aren't there.

you're too obsessive!

you're too hard on yourself!

i can't find my happiness.

i can't find my happy-medium.

because you haven't even tried!

you let that little voice take over.

it's much deeper than that little voice.

it's this insecurity i can't let go of.

it's all i think about

it's taken over me

but it's not who I am.

and I don't know what to do.

you do know what to do.

you always know.

it's whether you take the chance and do it or not.

such a lost soul.